The Difference, isn't.Coz d difference in it ain't that...

The Nothingness of Everything

2008-01-05T06:05:00.000+05:30

The wine is strong, the king is stronger, women are stronger still: But truth conquers all-Rosslyn Chapel

Let the battle begin.
It need not have to be a battle to know who the winner is,
He need not have to be a winner to know what the truth is,
Not winning is not, not knowing the truth.
Neither is knowing, not losing.

Battles are many,
losers are none, since winners are none.
The battle is still on.
Both know it.The truth is one.
Neither knows, which is the ONE.

The battle is still on. Always on.
Death,it is,that conquers all.

Apbouth Mghee:The Mask of 0

2006-02-17T23:27:00.000+05:30

Mood swing...

In trying to be,
as different as every one else
and as unique as you.
In trying to be,normal with every female
In trying to impress my boss
and submissive to my fellas

In trying to become famous,
over night, every night.
In trying to become a hero,
each day, every day.

To conquer the weak,
showoff to the peak,
Crazy,money,compensation,
fame and recognition.

In trying to be everything else,
I've lost myself. Lost,
masked with everything
to protect,hide, nothing
Nothing..

Meet me, the male
good,bad,ugly,
need be agree,
need be disagree,
Whatever,me,
good or bad, it's me, about me.

My about me is my mask
The chauvnist in me,
The mask of zero
me and my ego
together fight to unmask
the mask, win-lose,
I know, death.
Death,THE END.

season change,shed leaves,mood swing,
Roobaaroooo...

Ek Harijana, IT Ka...

2005-12-29T15:48:00.000+05:30

You are wrong, Yes, you are...

when they said
pass is right
I failed
not that I was wrong
but...I din't pass

A Fail is a pass
and vice versa
again I fail to fail,
now every time I pass,
I wonder what is right.

Born to generate waves,
I thought, I was.
Now Im here,
damn in here
Dammed without will
to test the waters,
deep and still.

bugs are harder
than earning bucks
finding whats wrong,
harder than finding whats not.

like a priveleged harijan,
fighting fights,
demanding rights,
marking mistakes,
highlighting fakes,

I wonder, what is right.
what is right,
what is wrong,
I wonder.

In search of the wisdom,to accept things I can't change...

Don't call that Platonic...

2005-10-21T17:30:00.000+05:30

Platonic... is just another term for something that's not, but love. I shall call it as some thing where, physical attraction is subtracted from the concept of love. And for those who feel love itself isn't that, I reframe the definition again, platonic, is something that derivatively defines and separates love from lust, and hence meant to be the divine version of love or any relationship for that matter.
Initially that was the term used to define the intimacy between the same sexes, but then people started to use it the other way.( Sorry, its the vice-versa, as in the comment #1)

For the records, here is the ^c ^v from m-w.com

Main Entry: pla·ton·ic
Pronunciation: pl&-'tä-nik, plA-
Function: adjective
Etymology: Latin platonicus, from Greek platOnikos, from PlatOn Plato
1 capitalized : of, relating to, or characteristic of Plato or Platonism
2 a : relating to or based on platonic love; also : experiencing or professing platonic love b : of, relating to, or being a relationship marked by the absence of romance or sex

There was one universal definition for the relationship that was there between any two or more, which doesn't come under "blood relationship", and that one got it's level escalated due to it's flexibility and robustness and was considered more powerful than this one which was shielded with ruled cultural heritage, and every father/mother wanted such a relationship with his/her offspring for it gave them the freedom and happiness which was missing in that definition.

I still consider this one idea that hasn't changed since it was born, rather I call it the source or the light from which things other than matter evolved, like say sexes and the senses. While all of them had at least a pinch of negativity in them, this one had evolved and let both the negatives and positives to evolve with a more or less, right balance.
Like a hint of an opposite say antimatter can cause a big destruction in the matter, so has this one. A high degree plus has an equally high degree minus.

To protect this, from the various available bad on earth, (for which this one is considered as the ultimate opposite good.), people have started to tell that this one is not this, but more (couldn’t say less, because it has made its presence at the fullest already) to escape from one kind of an opposite and the other fellow by this time had come out with another add on for this one, to prevent another equally such negative phenomenon to strike. In this way, in the name of protecting this one good concept/idea/thought (this would fill all the +ve adjectives known in all languages and still would require more explanation), we have buried at its entirety the reality of what it is. And now all that we assume, it to be, is no way near to what it actually is.

An unbalanced and unclear cultural and social intervention into this one thought has caused this corruption. It is at least now that we have to realize, unearth/excavate the reality and color this darkening world...Let's bring in reality and let not we allow this go, beyond this...

Hum aur Tum…
Dosth ban sakthae hain na ?

luv
cartic

| ? | Lifez so like that | ?|

2005-10-18T13:09:00.000+05:30

Who am I
Who do I compare with
I dont fancy,
on who decides,
who's who,
or was that the question meant to be

Is there any thing,beyond
either-or, or
that isn't within,
neither-nor,

In a formula,
count or rule
mine, doesn't fit.
Neither do they in,
principles or equations.
Not that I hate maths,
or I din't focus,
in proprotion or probability.

I Do count, yes,
for the no,
two numbers,
confidence of one,
and not in being,
the rest is all,
else, everything.

On the contrary,
Life isn't binary,
no similarity,no Dis,
coz the difference, isn't.

Defy define,
Defy principle, commons,
A fact, is a fact, is not one.
I disfancy,right and yes
I dontsay, wrong and no ,
not an oxymoron, either.

If this is pessimism or chauvinism
You havn't understood optimism

Be with me...
Will you ?
Sailing in diversities,
some were in between,
in the middle of everywhere.
Here,where,
everything,
is nothing.
Every example
is an exception,
every exception... an example.

Life is more than what I can define. Love this for its infinite. The options in, are my senses. Can't choose one, and leave the other with nil impact.

Salmonized !!

2005-09-29T17:39:00.000+05:30

Sniglets-collection of common words/slang (that r worthy but ain't in the dictionary), used in a particular community.I tried putting some of the sniglets used by obsessed IT ists into this situation of mine

_______________________

Salmonized...

Execugliding through the cube farm,
in a screen spasmed animosity,
egotictically
due to the Gadaboutag & craplets of the fUtility,

I was prairedogged,
by the blamestorming seagull manager,
a WAPathical stress puppy,
off a zen mail, backronymed
with an oxoxomoron,
as a tacitician's assmosis from a screenager,
for which I avatared
a fonesiac cellphonic apprisal,
for the dopeler effect(sic).

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Wo rishta jo tha hi nahi

2005-03-28T15:26:00.000+05:30

My recent visit to some other blogs...
very good ...

It was a Sunday afternoon; we all were in resting mood at that time the phone rang. Dad picked up the phone; he talked to somebody for sometime and kept the phone. After that he announced, “ Mahesh’s family is ok with Aastha, they have accepted our proposal”.
Actually I was suppose to experience the burst of joy by this news, but frankly I did not feel any emotions at that moment. About the alliance, it was just like any other higher middle class family. Mahesh was ordinary kind of guy, only son and look wise so so. Even I did not expect Shahrukh Khan too. Only good thing was he was a project leader in a well know MNC in Mumbai. Even I was working may not be in a very high profile company like him. What about his nature? Frankly speaking I just met him for half an hour, I could not say anything about him. And it is total arrange marriage you cannot expect to know more.
Well soon after this , we all went to Pune to Mahesh place to fix marriage date and also for engagement. The engagement ceremony was small and fine. Now I was also feeling happy about all these things. But still so many questions were there on my mind.‘Everything will be fine “ I told my self.
After this we started meeting every weekend. Sometimes I used to go to Pune or he used to come to Mumbai. One weekend when I was in his place, his mother asked me
“ So yesterday you people discussed about honeymoon? “ I was so embarrassed and for a moment I was not able to think for an answer. Having a close relation with mother is good thing but cross verifying these things without bothering what the other person will feel was a awful thing. The environment where I was brought was not doubt closely knit but we all respected each other’s privacy.
Next weekend Mahesh was in Pune. We arranged a meet with him because my best friend wanted to meet him. So we met in a hotel. After initial introduction when it came to place the order, Mahesh said, “Mom has given lunch box, you people please order for yourself, I will have lunch box.”
I:”You can take it back home. One day you can eat with us.”
Mahesh: “ No mom will feel bad and she will scold me “
I: “Ok then we will order the dishes and also we all will share your lunch “
I could not offer a better solution than this. Finally we were done with this issue. When it came to paying the bill, I was waiting that he will pay it. But he did not seem to be bothered so I paid it off. I was totally upset by his behavior but then I kept on telling my self he ay a nice person give him some time to prove.
After that It was my turn to visit his place. I was with my would be MIL. She asked me “Can you cook? “ I said, “I have never managed to cook but I am learning now”
MIL:”Oh my Mahesh does not like anything other than what I cook.”
I just kept quite. After that she showed me some snaps.
MIL: “ My Mahesh got lots of offers from so many high society girls. Still the offers are pouring. See this girl she works with Infosys. They are still forcing us”
I said calmly: “I think you should inform them now that he engaged now and you people are not looking for any more alliances.”
MIL:”Yeah but you know; despite of being engaged, my Mahesh does not look happy at all”.I was helpless, did not know what to say. I kept quite and came away.
One week after this , there was no call, no mail from them. One fine day they called and said “ We don’t think Aastha and Mahesh make a good pair. And Aastha has already insulted Mahesh ‘s mother. If she is behaving like this now only we do not know how the things will be in future. So we think we should call off this engagement. So we are returning the engagement ring given by you. Even our son is not happy about this relationship. So it is better to part our ways now itself before it is too late”.
Don’t know whether I should be happy or sad. But my parents collapsed. Even then everybody was trying to be normal with me. Everybody hide their tears and tried to give me hopes. My brain says you should not cry for something that never existed. But the hurt was too deep to recover.